I've got my heart right here.

I’m still not talking to my sister. I don’t know… it just seems like everything is so weird, and I guess I don’t know where we stand. She can call me names and bitch about me behind my back, but expects me to be fine about it? She didn’t say a word when she left for her holiday, and when she came back she walked straight past me without a word, but she still got me a dress and a necklace. Isn’t that so weird? After she gave me the dress, I thought maybe that was an apology or peace offering of sorts. I would prefer a simple ‘I’m sorry’ but I guess that’s not how it works in our family. But then the other morning she kicked up such a fuss when we asked her to move her car. Like seriously who does that? Tomorrow night is her engagement party, which she didn’t even talk to us about, we heard from mum and dad. She created a facebook event but that doesn’t count for something as important as this. Apparently she did the bridesmaids dresses over in Malaysia when she went on holiday, but she didn’t get my measurements or anything, so either I’m not a bridesmaid anymore, or she just didn’t want to talk to me and got a generic size. I don’t want to jump to any conclusions, or assume anything about why she’s acting like this, but from her actions, it’s really hard to stay positive about it all. I’m certain that this isn’t how a sister should be acting.

1. My parents- two people, I know, but they do mean a lot
2. My brothers and sister- I don’t think I would be where I am in life without them. My parents raised me but they’ve always been here right next to me. They’ve shaped my values, beliefs, opinions.
3. My best friends- I don’t want to them separately because they are all equally important and I only have 5 spots!! I love them so much. After everything, I know we’ll be friends forevvvvvs :)
4. Tuyen- she really is like my sister. Becoming her friend, and having her with me as family now, it’s amazing.
5. Lily- I can’t imagine my life without her, now that she’s in it :)

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sometimes I think about people trying to grow up quickly and leave their childhood behind and wanting to be adults and I weep for them because they haven’t figured out that adulthood sucks and by the time they do it’ll be too late

I would love to say that I regret nothing, because I think that everything that happens in life, is meant to happen, and there is a reason behind everything, but I guess nothing is as black and white as ‘I regret nothing’!

1. Chosen OT as my first preference. Would have saved so much time!
2. Mucked around in high school. Maybe if I paid attention more, focused more, dedicated more time to studying, I’d be somewhere else right now. But friends and my social life got in the way! Or maybe I’m just lazy.
3. Watched TV in my brother’s room with him the other night, because he got me sick and I feel like crapola!
4. Painted my room hot pink. Kind of regretting that now haha.
5. Spent all those months, years, arguing and resenting my parents.
6. Took for granted so many friendships.

• Worked today, was pretty boring! Read all the magazines, and spent the whole day msging Mary, Anthony and Ric haha
• Planned Anthony’s birthday! It’s pretty far away, a couple months (lol) but Mary and I are pretty excited! We’re taking him to aqwa, because we have this inside joke about him and fish haha, we’re getting him fish slippers, and these vans he wants. Hope it all turns out alright :D
• My brother got me sick, bah :( Took two codral today, and a demazin just before… so waiting for the effects right now :)
• Met his gf last night, she is pretty cool. So opposite of what I thought he would go for, but I think that’s a good thing :)
• Probably should be studying right now. Maybeeee.
• Work tomorrow. Joy.

1. Maybe I should be studying…
2. What am I gonna have for lunch today?
3. Maybe if I did something different, the situation would be totally different, things maybe would be better… and you would still be in my life.
4. Should I buy that?
5. I wonder what ______ is doing right now?
6. I wish I could look/act/talk/be like them.
7. What are they thinking?

1. Feed me haha
2. Be able to laugh. Be able to make me laugh :)
3. Romantic, cheesy, corny little details!
4. Understand me, and accept me, flaws and all
5. Want to get to know my best friends
6. Genuinely want to get to know me, what makes me happy, annoyed, excited
7. Trust, always
8. I need to feel comfortable around you, like I can be silly and stupid and you won’t judge me haha